Look, I’ve had a pretty dramatic five months. I deserve to have a little relaxation and recuperation about all the craziness, right? Today, I booked a 4-night stay in the Riviera Maya coming up in about two weeks. Being near the ocean has always made me happy and being happy right now sounds like the best medicine.
Of course, I am a little worried about sun exposure as well. The last thing I want to do is give my body any reason to go around and make more melanoma. I looked over my big container of my various sunscreens after I got my confirmation email from the booking agency. I’m probably going to need to purchase some new sunscreen to make sure that I have the highest level for my body. I have SPF-70 for my face but the tube is so small that I would probably end up using the entire thing in 2 days. The SPF-50 I have is nearly gone. Funny, but had I not ended up with skin cancer, I probably would have been fine just taking the SPF-30 and thought nothing more about it. Now I’m all twizzed out about not having 50 or higher.
A friend of mine just came back from a Mexican vacation. She said that she thought about me while she was on the beach without sunscreen on. I asked her if she put any on after she thought about it and she said no. It’s odd how we can delude ourselves into thinking that nothing bad will happen to us – until of course, it does.
I’m hoping this break does some good for me and my husband – who just accepted a job offer yesterday. I’m hoping that we can have some fun and try to reconnect. I’m hoping that my scar doesn’t make me so self-conscious that I don’t want to wear my bathing suit. I’m looking forward to taking a little time off work and just veg. I’m looking forward to finding a nice shady spot on the beach where I can hear the sounds of the waves while I slather myself with sunblock, very strong sunblock…