For a variety of reasons, I’ve been more emotional the past few days. I’m going to chalk it up to being sick and trying to maintain a chipper attitude when really, all I want to do is curl under a blanket, read a ton of books, eat chocolate, and nap.
My scar is reacting to all of this in sympathy by generating an ache. I find this intriguing. When I’m feeling emotionally good, my scar does not hurt anymore. But when I’m emotionally raw or under the weather, my scar suddenly decides to get into the act. I can’t tell if it’s jealous that I’m paying attention to something else in my body (or head) or if it’s aching along in sympathy to whatever else is bothering me.
Last night as I lie sniffling and coughing, I felt a twinge in my leg, followed by a dull ache all night every time I rolled over trying to find a spot where I might be able to breathe through a nostril. When I woke up this morning, I actually felt fairly decent, if not still phlegmy. But then I got emotionally upset over a situation this morning and now I’m sitting at my desk feeling my scar throb away. It’s not so much pain, as an ache. It’s almost the physical embodiment of emotional ache. And it’s kinda of weirding me out. If it starts acting up when the weather changes too, I’m never not going to feel this darn thing…